Battle heats up...

Saturday I found myself at the local supermarket...looking for something to eat. Wow...I tried to fight the urge to get in the car and go to town. I held back for about two hours. The urge to get something sweet with fat was overpowering. I walked around the house with car keys in hand. No I told myself...I am too close to my contest. Soon that no became maybe.

Finally I got into the car and drove to the store.
First I picked up some bananas.
Before I knew it...I was standing in front of the freezer wall in the ice cream section.
I stood there for five minutes looking,looking...and looking.
I'm sure the other shoppers thought I was nuts.
Just couldn't make up my mind.

Then I walked away and found myself in the bakery section looking at the cookies.
Same thing happened. I just couldn't decide.
Then I found myself in the candy section....staring at all the goodies.
Still couldn't decide what to buy.

Finally I came to my senses...grabbed the bananas tightly and went to the check out.

When I got home I had a tablespoon of peanut butter and a rice cake.
I calmed down...and felt so much better.

Guess I dodged a big bullet.
Maybe this is a sign of growth in the BFL program?

Next time though I plan to hide the car keys...and eat the peanut butter as soon as the urge hits. No need to tempt fate.

A new week is here, I am closer to my June 10th competition and I feel as if I'll have to keep my guard up as my body fights to come into its own.

PS I didn't eat the bananas either. Bought them for my husband.